She spoke and cast thin scars upon your hands--
scalding and marking--her voice--a blooming aster--
a laurel tree--scattering seedy strings of thought--
bequeathing her soil to us--shading and spoiling us--
sprouting and sheltering us from the ballasts of her song--
I should like to carve her lined face, around
her eyes, below her jaw, cutting each into
teemed rhyme. To feel the bridge of her nose,
smooth beneath my fingers and thin lips, parted,
and shaping, finally molding life into geometric form.
But no model rests so long for my hands
to brand them into beauty. Shall it always be I,
stunned with harmony and never I, Jovian
s
Cut your sign language
upon my breast. I hear bark
split beneath your dress.
You wear torn tights - black -
an olive vest. I catch your
noise lilting on my breath.
Descend your rough branch.
Scale down for me. Sun shall
fail if we may - Sea
shall sing - just sweet - and
I hear high tide receding
where our hearts shall meet.
Can peppered ribbons
musk raw palms, burnt sea-grass?
Can they kill fresh night?
Will winds betray our
fragrant firmament? Our sky
so still, distilled, still
turning, turned gray, turned
lilac with sun-leaked light. Bulbs
bloom on hollow dunes.
I'm at the Barnes--the museum--Matisse's Le bonheur de vivre.
I'm overcome. Blood trembling and thick with a tremor, untuning me
wondrously. Must this revest my voice in a second abstruse tongue?
Not fair. How can this pen write something that cannot be written?
this is mongoose. this is mongoose alone.
this is divine heat in the pear tree.
this is mongoose in the pear tree.
this is earth wearied with weight.
this is moon-- watching.
this is empty hallway.
this is fleshy pink and wet.
this is an extreme case.
this can't recure itself.
this is snake. this is me.
this, cobra; this, asp.
this cannot be pregnant.
this cannot fill
only poison.
this wraps me in coils.
this is harlotry.
this is snake in a pear tree.
this is mongoose hissing.
these are no smooth skin
these are no fine hair
these are no smooth lips
this is a dream. this is me.
this is every night, inevitably.
it drags. its teeth in ankles (mine)--
it really drags. the people at the office stare,
they whisper. (what?) they see a bulge
beneath my skirt. my belly feels
so full of blood. i reach and touch
(to touch is wonderful)
my breasts; my hips--
what a burden. what a weight.
i never knew i never knew
night i'm home
empty house
but giggles
coming from the
walk-in closet where i
keep my mongoose it is
looking at me (demigod)
hovel made of dresses it uses them
as tunnels (i pretend they're wombs
i could birth myself in again) it's
giggling
squeezing into tight pencil skirts
its claws mark the floor
its feet are withered
it's been running in the closet
wall to wall to wall
She spoke and cast thin scars upon your hands--
scalding and marking--her voice--a blooming aster--
a laurel tree--scattering seedy strings of thought--
bequeathing her soil to us--shading and spoiling us--
sprouting and sheltering us from the ballasts of her song--
I should like to carve her lined face, around
her eyes, below her jaw, cutting each into
teemed rhyme. To feel the bridge of her nose,
smooth beneath my fingers and thin lips, parted,
and shaping, finally molding life into geometric form.
But no model rests so long for my hands
to brand them into beauty. Shall it always be I,
stunned with harmony and never I, Jovian
s
Cut your sign language
upon my breast. I hear bark
split beneath your dress.
You wear torn tights - black -
an olive vest. I catch your
noise lilting on my breath.
Descend your rough branch.
Scale down for me. Sun shall
fail if we may - Sea
shall sing - just sweet - and
I hear high tide receding
where our hearts shall meet.
Can peppered ribbons
musk raw palms, burnt sea-grass?
Can they kill fresh night?
Will winds betray our
fragrant firmament? Our sky
so still, distilled, still
turning, turned gray, turned
lilac with sun-leaked light. Bulbs
bloom on hollow dunes.
Will the nights still be mine,
Once you've found your provider?
Your chest still aching,
Your fingers still shaking;
Your pain still profound,
And still profoundly yours,
In all its cold crimson ache--
However distant it may seem
From your warm catharsis.
Will your body still arch empty in the darkness?
Will I embrace you, whimpering,
And put your every little bone
in place, holding you at rest?
Your flesh, your pain
Upon my imperfect breast.
I pray, instead, you leave no trail of crumbs,
I pray you bask in oven-light glow--
Your skin taking on a smoothness
You've only coveted in the past.
Then by the fringe of a skirt she
I am lonely and you can't help me,
You say, flatly.
But you have articulated it so well.
You lie thin in the grass
Looking at beauty you will never hold
And never have
You are so small, you are almost nothing.
You are laughing and you are being so strong
finding promise of happiness in what is bittersweet
I try to do the same.
Looking at you looking at her,
I almost want to call that whole thing love
But it is not.
It is something else.
When I touch you,
When I glow in your admiration of her
(If I make myself love her)
I am still nothing
And you are still lonely.
An unnaturally thorny rose
Tattooed across your flat belly--
To protect you, you said.
Lauren- I wish I could see you only in that vague sense that I once did,
Seeing you, knowing you, only from a picture,
Fake black hair and ballet clothes,
Neither a smile nor a frown on your thin white face.
I am not to say which of your daily aches were real,
And which were manufactured like your leather-boots;
But you made sure the pain of each stomp was shared.
Lauren- I wish I could talk to you like I imagined I might have, once
Before you hurt your leg and spoke only in commands,
Before you hurt your back and spoke only in pained
The Reconstruction by blakshadowdmiror, literature
Literature
The Reconstruction
577.54- Desert Ecology
The mountains protect the city that I live in. They rise from the ground around every side, like natural walls to a castle, but the moat does not exist- we only get four inches of rain a year. The people live in the valley between the vast black mountains speckled with green cacti. It is barren, any shrubbery is brown and wilting- like overused coffee filters. There are no stoplights, only stop signs to control the minimal traffic. Along the streets there are signs warning people of horse drawn carriages and desert wildlife-deer, javelina, and coyotes. Up the hill of School House Road going north further from civilizat
The first time we kissed, it was as if all the legos fell into place. It was perfect. We spent mornings staring at the ceiling together, brushing the nights rest from our eyelids. We went on long walks to anywhere, taking pictures as we went. I giggled and told you that this particular sunset was better than the rest. This one god made for you, personally. Thats why the clouds were so white, and the sky was so orange-purple. We traded chocolate chip kisses and secret handshakes, truth-or-dares and tickle fights. We stayed up all night watching movies on m
Seventeen syllables
Opened the door
To memory, to meaning.
In a haiku, the number of syllables in any one line is optional, but the sum total of the three lines must always be seventeen.
Unpacking. Repacking. Packing.
Seeing you and you--
and all alike.
Waiting and writing.
Soon your car will come.
And, soon, you'll be in my arms.
And a man said, Speak to us of Self-Knowledge.
And he answered, saying:
Your hearts know in silence the secrets of the days and the nights.
But your ears thirst for the sound of your heart's knowledge.
You would know in words that which you have always known in thought.
You would touch with your fingers the naked body of your dreams.
And it is well you should.
The hidden well-spring of your soul must needs rise and run murmuring to the sea;
And the treasure of your infinite depths would be revealed to your eyes.
But let there be no scales to weigh your unknown treasure;
And seek not
You know what's going to happen now.
You should admit your situation--there would be more dignity in it.
If the rule you followed brought you to this, of what use was the rule?